I notice a lot of time I only write journals when Im feeling like crap. Sometimes I write about something good. It seems like it's the things people neglect to say that have the biggest impact on me.

Do you ever have one of those day where it's like everything someone says is the wrong thing for them to say regardless. Like whatever they say to you is going to make you feel like crap. Well... Im having one of those days today. Maybe its because I didn't get much sleep last night, or today for that matter. I have a lot of stuff going on right now... all jumbling inside my head. Writing this journal seems to be helping.

I had an interview at Steve Madden today... I need a job.

I cant wait to get out of here

"I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind."

-- Brand New

I am waiting for the day to be sure. Sure that what I am doing with my life is what I should be doing. Things will work out... I know. It may take a while for me to realize what is supposed to be, but I am confident that one day I will understand and know when things are right. I don't know, its 3:13 in the morning. My thoughts are just really jumbled right now. 

This one better not end up like the last, you promised me that. I hope this is one promised that is kept. I want us to be happy. Whether happiness lies in an "us" or not.

I should probably be sleeping.

Sorry for the confusing and boring journal once again, I just felt like typing out whats been playing through my head tonight.